Today is February 9th. It's been five years to the day since our world fell apart in ways we never expected. It’s easily been the hardest five years of my life. When the craziness of 2020 hit, I wanted to be one of those strong voices offering hope and truth. But I quickly found out that I just wasn't in that place, and it has now been almost two years since I've written a blog post. It's felt like a long, dark night of the soul for these last several years, and I just didn't have the ...
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Learning To Let Go Of What We’ve Been Through To Embrace What God Has Put In Front Of Us
Mother’s Day is here again, and it's feeling a bit more heavy this year than it has the last several years. My emotions have been a little bit all over the place this year. And to pile it on, while organizing this week I also recently discovered a box I had forgotten about: my IVF box. It's a box I haven’t opened since I got pregnant. It’s a box I haven’t thrown away either. Even though it had two sharps containers filled to the brim with used needles and plenty of other ...
Fertility Update: Still Waiting
Just to be clear for all the skim readers: we are *NOT* pregnant. While we are right in the middle of National Infertility Awareness Week, I thought it might be time to give a little fertility update. Since we posted over a year ago in January about meeting with our fertility doctor to try for baby #2, we've had questions here and there about what we've been doing! So here's a little rundown for you. To clarify, we have actually not pursued IVF again since we had Scarlett. We did a few other ...
Broken Is Better
This past week I got invited to go back and visit the recovery group I was a part of for about a year and a half after Cameron's confession. It was so good to be with these special women, and during our meeting we made Kintsugi together. Kintsugi is a traditional Japanese art that uses a precious metal like gold to bring together the pieces of a broken pottery item and at the same time enhance the breaks. This technique essentially makes the piece more unique and adds more value to it. If you ...
I Feel Like A Bad Christian If I Take Anxiety Medicine
I had a friend say this to me recently. It broke my heart. I know talking about mental health is such a thing right now, but I'm discovering how broken our system is when it comes to this, especially in the Christian community. This is exactly why our language matters. When we say things like, "God is bigger than your depression", or "trusting God more will take away your anxiety", or "this is just a spiritual warfare issue", what we're actually doing is communicating that if this ...
Our Seven Day Miracle
This transition into November always brings back bittersweet memories for me. It was during this exact week four years ago that I was pregnant with our first baby who we affectionately named Sprink. I remember some of these moments as if they were yesterday. I remember the sting of death that seemed to fill every room in our home. Shortly after our miscarriage, I decided to write a letter to our little babe about the brief time we had together. As Infant Loss ...
Selling Our Home – The End Of A Bittersweet Chapter
A few days ago, it finally happened. We finally closed on our house! It’s been a process that has lasted since March and been really hard on us, but after finding our second buyer, things went a bit more smoothly this time around. On Wednesday evening, we finally signed all the papers and handed over the keys. It was truly bittersweet. The idea of selling our house has actually been a topic we’ve come to every few months for the last several years. We knew it would happen eventually. But ...
From Our Heart To Yours – A Follow-Up Video To Our Blog Series
We wanted to follow up on a few things since sharing our blog series with you! We have already shared so much in our four posts, but there were a few things we wanted to say that can really only be said on video. So here you go....from our heart to yours. ...
Part Four – Starting Over
By: Cameron Sprinkle I'd never driven more than a couple hours by myself before, and I’d certainly never done it feeling like my entire life was hanging in the balance. About 500 miles later I finally made my way into the mountains of North Carolina and at long last saw the His High Places sign out front. Pulling in I knew that geographically this was the right place…but I was anxiously wondering how long it would take for me to assess if this huge decision I’d made was the right ...
Part Three – Grounds For Divorce
In the weeks following my husband’s confession of his affair and pornography addiction, somehow I began to make big decisions, get groceries, pay the bills, and claim back my home all with a clear mind. I really have no idea how it all happened other than by the grace of God interceding on my behalf. I was very scared of what was to come. I would get out of bed every morning to nurse Scarlett, and then I would sit in that rocking chair in her room trying to figure out what I was ...
