Today is February 9th. It's been five years to the day since our world fell apart in ways we never expected. It’s easily been the hardest five years of my life. When the craziness of 2020 hit, I wanted to be one of those strong voices offering hope and truth. But I quickly found out that I just wasn't in that place, and it has now been almost two years since I've written a blog post. It's felt like a long, dark night of the soul for these last several years, and I just didn't have the ...
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Learning To Let Go Of What We’ve Been Through To Embrace What God Has Put In Front Of Us
Mother’s Day is here again, and it's feeling a bit more heavy this year than it has the last several years. My emotions have been a little bit all over the place this year. And to pile it on, while organizing this week I also recently discovered a box I had forgotten about: my IVF box. It's a box I haven’t opened since I got pregnant. It’s a box I haven’t thrown away either. Even though it had two sharps containers filled to the brim with used needles and plenty of other ...
Fertility Update: Still Waiting
Just to be clear for all the skim readers: we are *NOT* pregnant. While we are right in the middle of National Infertility Awareness Week, I thought it might be time to give a little fertility update. Since we posted over a year ago in January about meeting with our fertility doctor to try for baby #2, we've had questions here and there about what we've been doing! So here's a little rundown for you. To clarify, we have actually not pursued IVF again since we had Scarlett. We did a few other ...
Broken Is Better
This past week I got invited to go back and visit the recovery group I was a part of for about a year and a half after Cameron's confession. It was so good to be with these special women, and during our meeting we made Kintsugi together. Kintsugi is a traditional Japanese art that uses a precious metal like gold to bring together the pieces of a broken pottery item and at the same time enhance the breaks. This technique essentially makes the piece more unique and adds more value to it. If you ...
Five Things I Want To Share With The Woman Who Just Became A Mother After Infertility
First things first, let me say - CONGRATS!!! You made it to motherhood. This day has finally arrived, so let’s just take a minute. This is a BIG DEAL. The day you weren’t sure would come. Now you’re finally rocking the maternity pants you were once jealous everyone else got to wear. Or you’re holding your miracle baby in your arms. The long-awaited adoption finally went through. It’s truly a surreal moment, isn’t it? I’m so stinking happy for you. I know the feeling and there’s not many in life ...
I Feel Like A Bad Christian If I Take Anxiety Medicine
I had a friend say this to me recently. It broke my heart. I know talking about mental health is such a thing right now, but I'm discovering how broken our system is when it comes to this, especially in the Christian community. This is exactly why our language matters. When we say things like, "God is bigger than your depression", or "trusting God more will take away your anxiety", or "this is just a spiritual warfare issue", what we're actually doing is communicating that if this ...
Our Seven Day Miracle
This transition into November always brings back bittersweet memories for me. It was during this exact week four years ago that I was pregnant with our first baby who we affectionately named Sprink. I remember some of these moments as if they were yesterday. I remember the sting of death that seemed to fill every room in our home. Shortly after our miscarriage, I decided to write a letter to our little babe about the brief time we had together. As Infant Loss ...
Five Boundaries Necessary For Affair Recovery
I love this topic, you guys. I think I like talking about it because the idea of having boundaries in my marriage is somewhat new to me in the last few years, and it’s been life-changing for our marriage. I’d always heard of it, I knew there were books on it, I just had no idea what it should look like. Then……..my marriage fell apart. I quickly realized how necessary these boundaries would be when it came to putting our marriage back together. My biggest struggle with it all is that I ...
Proof That Your Partner’s Affair Wasn’t About You
When most women first find out that their partner had an affair or that he’s been watching porn, their initial response tends to be the same: "It must be me." Some of my first thoughts were: What did I do wrong? Am I not pretty enough? Not thin enough? Do I not have sex with him enough?? How could I let this happen? Well, I’m here to tell you that it did not have anything do with me. And it did not have anything to do with you--and I’m going to prove it to you. First let me say ...
Celebrating 10 Years With Worship
10 years of marriage. I think worship is the only appropriate response for today! So that’s exactly what we are doing. To us, this isn't just a feel good music video. These are a few of the songs that we sang out of discipline during some really dark days, believing God would somehow rescue us. And today, we sing them from a place of deep joy and gratefulness. If you’re in a dark place right now and struggling to believe these words...we are singing these things over you and believing them ...
From Our Heart To Yours – A Follow-Up Video To Our Blog Series
We wanted to follow up on a few things since sharing our blog series with you! We have already shared so much in our four posts, but there were a few things we wanted to say that can really only be said on video. So here you go....from our heart to yours. ...
Part Four – Starting Over
By: Cameron Sprinkle I'd never driven more than a couple hours by myself before, and I’d certainly never done it feeling like my entire life was hanging in the balance. About 500 miles later I finally made my way into the mountains of North Carolina and at long last saw the His High Places sign out front. Pulling in I knew that geographically this was the right place…but I was anxiously wondering how long it would take for me to assess if this huge decision I’d made was the right ...
Part Three – Grounds For Divorce
In the weeks following my husband’s confession of his affair and pornography addiction, somehow I began to make big decisions, get groceries, pay the bills, and claim back my home all with a clear mind. I really have no idea how it all happened other than by the grace of God interceding on my behalf. I was very scared of what was to come. I would get out of bed every morning to nurse Scarlett, and then I would sit in that rocking chair in her room trying to figure out what I was ...
Part Two – My Life As A Sex Addict
By: Cameron Sprinkle The morning after my confession to Karissa I woke up and couldn’t figure out where I was. Then I remembered that I was sleeping in a friend’s guest bed, and it hit me: what had happened the day before wasn’t a nightmare—it was reality. The emotion was similar to the moment when you wake up the morning after having a death in the family and realizing that yes, that person really is gone. That really happened. I had just devastated my wife and everyone I care ...
Part One – The Day I Took Off My Wedding Ring
Seven years of marriage. We had just celebrated our anniversary in August of 2016 feeling victorious. Close. And so hopeful for the future. Then in October we welcomed our first child after over three years of a tough battle with infertility; when she arrived in all of her glory, it was one of the most incredible moments of my life. We were thrilled to be parents to this perfect little girl, and I was so excited to finally have the family I’d fought so hard for. But as our little baby grew ...
New Blog Series Coming Soon!
We wanted to share just a few quick thoughts on our mini blog series coming up in just TWO days! We would love for you to share this video with any friend who you think needs to be a part of this community of hope and healing. Whether you’re married, single, a parent, infertile, 18, or 85….God has something for you here. We truly believe this is the most important work we've ever done. Thank you so much for joining us on this journey! Love, Cameron & Karissa ...
The Missing Inmate: My Mental Health Battle
By: Cameron Sprinkle A little over two years ago I crashed and burned out of ministry, nearly losing everything I held dear in the process. It was a startling and earth-rocking wake-up call that forced me to re-examine everything about myself, including my mental health. I’m at a point now where I’m ready to share my findings and my story in hopes that other people would find the same revelations and freedom. It’s ugly, but it’s real. This post isn’t meant to be a stand-alone thesis or ...
Selling Our Home – The End Of A Bittersweet Chapter
A few days ago, it finally happened. We finally closed on our house! It’s been a process that has lasted since March and been really hard on us, but after finding our second buyer, things went a bit more smoothly this time around. On Wednesday evening, we finally signed all the papers and handed over the keys. It was truly bittersweet. The idea of selling our house has actually been a topic we’ve come to every few months for the last several years. We knew it would happen eventually. But ...